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Things Fall Apart

by Martial

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1.
308 00:47
It could have been just like you said It could have been that evil look in my eye It could have been all that medicine that I took but I wasn't prescribed No, I'll never see how it was easy for you to leave me But if it wasn't so hard For you to move on Then maybe You were never here at all
2.
You I needed someone To love What I do I needed passion but I got You Not till what I needed fled My interest grew It was when I couldn't choose Thats when I settled for you But I feel like you wanted me Just so you could say you had something Do people like you ever need Or just go on forever wanting? Cause her She's what I always needed She's my dream it's so pure Those very same feelings pushed Towards you were for her One day I saw that She wouldn't return Which was why we never worked I tried to with you replace her But you did just the same, didn't you? As every boy since me has seen your room You're never satisfied cause you're not sure Just what you want but you want more Now, I'd give anything yo take back Giving everything to you And stop myself from ever mentioning How I thought you were cute I was nieve to think Those comments wouldn't really swell your head I used to pray 'till death you'd stay Now I just wish that you were dead
3.
The Key of G 04:56
Every tune I write I feel the pen speaking right to you As if all that once seeping through logic Cutting right to your soul Each a new room Where I can sit and examine you You’re everything that makes up you What more could I want Even more so what else would I need? You’re the gap I try so hard to fill When I feel the need to create As if somehow limiting chords and thoughts will Together come to emulate This broadened wide beyond scope view Of us. Oh, how great So what’s there to wait for? Cause in my mind We’ve been dancing and sharing laughs this whole time So please, take yours cause I’m just fine Watching you play out in the field Run your circles, I’ll be waiting here on the sides When that moment comes you’ll run to me When you get a glimpse of what I’m looking at We can use each other’s company I’d enjoy you next to me in the grass As much as we’ll enjoy everything We’ll embrace how nothing lasts Just can’t find the words that come close to contain The way I think and feel about you But it is a ton so I’ll rearrange Old words we’ve heard over used Cause I’ve just never had feelings for anyone Anything like I do for you Darling please tell me the truth How do you make your laugh so damn cute? It’s killing me just to be around you and not be yours So the most I can do is hope you find what you’re waiting for
4.
Choose a color Pick a theme Things are never what they seem You can't have yellow without green Everything is everything The one light behind shines the scene And the truth is the joints That space between two points But if the world keeps spinning round Before I get sick, I'm getting down A boat can’t spend most of it’s ride Leaned too far to either side It’s balance comes from left and right Outer edges sprout inside The beaming light is blinding bright And the center stays unknown Though it’s anywhere you go Just sit hand in hand As still as you can And if the world keeps spinning round Then where would I find solid ground? I can be silence and peace And stop the world spinning beneath me I just can’t stand life on steady feet I need the ground pulled out under me Start my endless free-falling Listen to you breathe Be all you can be
5.
Time is Now 03:05
I’m in love with the sky and the ground With silence and sound Solitude or people around me I’ve got My sights set on the sun They aim low for no one This is the most fun I’m thinking that I have had in years It feels so nice to feel, again To think just from sitting here Each blade’s touch is so real The world is holding me, coddling From the tips of my toes to heels It’s so warm snuggled in space The hug from the day Masked in the winds embrace, it carries me dumb Founded smile on my face To that nameless place I can see it radiating oh how All light feels like home But darkness feels cool I guess It’s when I’m most alone I feel closest to you And every other thing or being Contribute to the whole That’s all I wanna do It’s right behind us Can you feel the shift? Are you in love with it? Do you follow the twists? And go through with the flow of it? om ah hum vajra guru padma siddhi hum
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I’m so bent on silly things They bother me Like how nothing ever seems to go my way It’s the only thing I think of when I’m lonely I am trapped in my own skin And there’s no way out I feel confined to a life time of perpetual doubt As I am always told to cease when I open my mouth Once lifted but as we grew I was let down Now I stand tall for who I am Despite your world I may even try forever to win the girl Cause I’ll never be alone Till I’m alone for good Don’t push it away! The end’s coming, as bad as it seems No one plays forever, no Nothing stays together! Yeah, the world was feeling fine The day I found my mind Thought I lost my head and it never came back It was like your storm on that sunny, warm afternoon So calm and composed, there’s no room for control No matter what I do And I know this year will be hard cause I’ll be missing you More than I ever dreamt or wanted to There’s no need for the chance to say bye Act like I was never here You can shake up the waves all you want But your waters not deep
7.
In my mind there’s a beautiful girl Somewhere out there Come to find one in the real world Which my dreams can’t compare She’s comprised with diamonds for eyes And flowers in her hair It’s usually when I would leave But as of now I wouldn’t dare She is sight and I am sound Were a beautiful match Her vision keeps my feet on the ground Embedded in fact She says “it’s nice to keep my mind in the clouds and my awareness in tact” It’s usually when I would leave But I know why I haven’t yet I come by just to say hello She’s happy as can be And it breaks my heart into two This is the one for me But I’ve been through all of this before So I know what she can’t see She’s gonna be in love with him Until she just can’t leave Well fine by me I smirk and hang my head, begin my retreat Maybe I'll take 3's Just one or two more and I won't feel a thing
8.
The New Sad 03:24
Thinking of you I never think about your face It clicks a trigger in my brain That reminds me Deathly of the Life I’ll never lead The parts of you I’ll never see I’ve got six minutes till the break of dawn marks Seven months since you’ve been gone, oh Moment of clarity You will never be that innocent girl you were to me Cause you gave yourself away He’ll never love the things I did About you So now really, how smart are you? You make decisions of which include No promise or hope of love You’re gonna get hurt when you’re thinking of your life And that story from the backseat of his car From times judgement things were going too far Too quick and rushing barely leaving a mark Oh, it’s so hard to screech the tires when the car’s in park Moment of clarity You will never be that innocent girl you were to me Cause you gave yourself away He’ll never love the things I did About you All the talks we’ve shared I’m forced to ask where your standards went Did you give up on life when you did on us? Cause you’re not who you were Cause when answered honestly It’s a question that could break your heart God showed of when he made such art But you shamed his plan of fate and love You shamed his plan of fate and love
9.
God 03:01
Let me out of the cage Twenty years in here and nothing’s seemed to change Why be placed waiting to be saved? Who’d bathe me in disgrace as they send me on my way? That doesn’t seem too heavenly to me If life is a blessing then it can’t be the real thing A safe room, neutral ground, a waiting place Where there is right to go wrong Unity to disintegrate If truth’s a tube of translucent light Carved and molded to infinite space and size No chance for growth or going outside of it’s walls At all You’ll learn to the do the best with what you got Drive all the flow to the center and don’t ever stop I bet you’ll never get in deep enough I’m losing faith in the war for trust Believers in love paying no mind at all to lust Willing to fight each other off for peace Shatter their own reflections in hopes it kills the beast Can’t fight the feeling my body’s a shell And when I think about it not one part of me is my “self” Take the the whole bunch, add it all up, still not enough I need to find myself, deep inside myself You are the basis for space and time Make the choice, destroy all evidence and signs of it And with closed eyes, walk straight lines, soon you’ll find That you’re lost, but Nothing before has ever more been okay When there’s nothing to tell, there’s nothing left to say Enjoy the world, not the way it’s explained But as for me, I know he is
10.
Walk Walk 02:40
I walk walk walk down the street Dragging my feet The cars passing by I hear honking I use my hand to block the wind The other sparks the wick Rolled earth between my lips starts working But no matter what street sign I’m not wandering from the path My only hope to go where I wanna get So it’s walk walk right down the road Just dragging my toes Though I’m not quite sure where it’s all going Neighbors watch me stop and toke Their staring as I choke Can’t they see life’’s just one big joke unfolding? Where people walk side by side Round and round around the globe Eyes down at the ground telling themselves they’re alone If there was an easy way to do this Then it would have been done by now Imagine the difference In the existence loop playing out Side of my understanding Till we finally find our wee out And escape the cycle
11.
Are you really done? Or are you just scared of what might be Buried underneath this tension still between You and me? Cause whether nothing’s there Or there’s just to much to bare and face Then ignoring this won’t make it all go away No, you’re not fooling anybody Summer It always brings me back to when you loved me too How I never told you that I was happy to do Those leaps and tricks over sharp sticks and through flaming hoops Cause at least I had you But these days I often spend my time at night lying away And this history of yours and mine my mind replays An endless pursuit of what to do or say To mend my mistakes I just can’t let this go We were both supposed to grow so old Together Now all of my friends Into each day’s end will say, “fold Forget her” But some things are easier said than done (When you’re angry and pushing me away being) (Malicious I always want to stay) (Cause when you’re sleeping) (You hold my arm so tight it shows you) (Love me through spite) Please don’t make me leave (When you’re angry and pushing me away being) Have you torn up your photos of me? (Malicious I always want to stay) I’m not ready to leave (You hold my arm so tight I know) You need me in the day light
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Darling You used to pull me close When you thought no one would notice us Doing stuff In the back of the Room I mean, baby I miss your shining eyes Your tendency to surprise me By letting Me in my way In Cause the whole time I could see in your eyes how In the back of your mind You were waiting to go But who’s feelings were you considering? Not mine Oh, how I’d like to know Toria I miss your judging stare Your total lack of care for me. cause sweetie Some how you felt like Home

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released January 22, 2015

Written, performed and recorded by Nicholas Starrantino
Mastered by Patrick Scherer
Artwork by Alexandra Galiardo and Jimmy Foti

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